Submitted by ProPenguin on Wed, 2012-02-08 02:13
Hey guys. That day is approaching and I'm really excited. But this is going to be more than just a stop PMO. This is going to be a full out change in my life if I can just keep on track. I recommend you all make similar changes in your life, as well. Although the whole "SMART" goal bullshit recommends only having one goal at a time, I don't believe in that. I feel with routine, I should be able to make beneficial changes to my life. I am writing this section in 2 parts.
Submitted by ProPenguin on Mon, 2012-02-06 01:17
Before I start my reboot in 10 days, I'd like to talk a little about some of the problems I have and the emotions I feel. This is to reach out to anyone else who may be experiencing similar problems but haven't read much about it or would like to offer/ask for advice.
I'm going to start with a bit about my battle with depersonalization and derealization, which I believe stem from my porn use.
Submitted by kurisu on Sun, 2012-02-05 19:47
A few days ago, I emailed Scholar Girl, as mentioned in my previous blog. It was just a harmless "how's it going" kind of email. No response.
I am a little bit sad. I thought she and I were becoming good friends. But now, to make a long story short, it is starting to look like she only used me as a shoulder to cry on, and dropped me like a piece of garbage once I was no longer necessary. Really, she has made zero effort to convince me otherwise.
Submitted by Debug on Thu, 2012-02-02 05:25
Things are going along quite nicely. My anxiety is flaring up right now so instead of ruminating I'm just letting my thoughts and sensations sit there. That's good I figure.
Submitted by Gregor on Tue, 2012-01-31 11:54
I can't have any pets because the place where I live is not suitable for them and I wouldn't have enough time for them anyway (job and other activities).
Anyway, I do like cats. If you like cats too and you are currently experiencing PMO withdrawal symptoms like feeling agitated or depressed, then this tip may help you a little bit.
Search for video clips of purring cats on YouTube and listen to them. I have an iPod, so I can lie down and try to relax while listening to and/or watching such a video clip.
Submitted by Gregor on Mon, 2012-01-30 11:25
Submitted by Debug on Sun, 2012-01-29 19:25
So far so good on the reboot trail. It's been three days so far since my very brief relapse and I've been fairly good at ignoring urges and just keeping busy. However, I did put a lot more thought into what porn did to me and I feel a follow up to the last blog is needed to finish expressing how I feel about porn and why I want to remove myself from it forever.
Porn and Novelty: My Thoughts
Submitted by Debug on Tue, 2012-01-24 20:22
Well it's been a week so far and it's been an imperfect week. That's fine, relapse don't mean a whole lot and I know that I just need to keep on going. I've considered this week a week of testing the waters more so then anything else... interestingly (and after reading most of ybop) I have managed to draw a few conclusions about what I feel are my problems at hand.
1. Lack of Libido
Submitted by kurisu on Mon, 2012-01-23 20:42
For my last couple of relapses, I feel like I've somehow been spared the usual withdrawal symptoms. It's only Day 3 but I am having a surprisingly good day. Maybe it helps that my relapses have been few and far between compared to the past--less dopamine abuse, fewer adverse effects?
Submitted by bozzi6 on Mon, 2012-01-23 08:07
This is my 15th day without pmo and I decided to masturbate without porn to see if I could O.
I noticed my erection was at around 80% hard and my sensitivity was increased. The technique I used to not fantasise was, I stared and focused on my ceiling with my mind blank. I continued to masturbate without fantasy, it took around 3 minutes then I had an orgasm. The load i shot was more powerful and bigger than i've had in a while. However I do now have a headache.
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