Self-Control

NYT book review, sent to me by a forum member

Now I'm ready to head into step 4, after successfully completing the previous 3 steps in my plan.

This one will be easier as I had originally planned. Basically a free-for-all stage. No planned days of abstinence for the next month and a half. My plan was to enjoy whenever I wanted up until after my anniversary. Then I would have two weeks of abstaining on Wednesdays and Fridays, followed by heading into step 5, a full month of abstinence.

I identified a trigger condition and at the same time realized something about my pornography viewing habits. I received some highly stressful news at work (sufficient to cause chest pain), and this news, combined with the fact that my wife will be out of town for a few days, made me think about watching porn. In the past, I have used porn to relieve stress, so I was vaguely aware of that trigger already.

He needed to experience giving me an orgasm, because I think it was important to him, and he also might have wondered if I was able to have one. And so I took the fall, and had one.

We had been trying not to have an orgasm for our last few encounters, so this orgasm was, like, off the map. Gold star. But back to the experiment...

I had an orgasm, and then we rested, and he was saying, "I want one too." I just kind of lay there resting, thinking "maybe he'll change his mind in a minute..." and he did (!) thank God.

Hi again folks

It's about time. I was hoping to get around to doing this.
To start things off, a little info about me.

I'm a girl, age 20, living with my parents, going through the very difficult path of self-learning. I have Inattentive Attention Deficit Disorder and Clinical Depression, two massive mental weights that is keeping me from doing the usual things like getting a decent job going long enough, or doing alright in college. I'm currently waiting for therapy to start so I can get back on my feet.