life

Being

What you are is not the voice in your head (your ego) but you are the being above the ego, the one watching the thoughts in your mind come to mind and pass away - the one watching and noticing the thoughts that your brain throws up constantly.

By focussing on the moment, on your breath, and not thinking you can get in touch with this inner body, this natural intelligence inside yourself. You will feel more connected with your true self and more able to cope with and control the ego, banishing its stranger suggestions into touch.

1 month clean and what I have learned

Allright guys (and girls), 1 month clean without any porn what so ever. This is probably the 4-5 time i have crossed this magical line, and now I am wandering this desert alone trying to figure out how to get out of this hellish land.

My story

First of all, excuse me for my poor english: I'm spanish.

I've been a porn addict for several years, and a reader of this site for two or three months and I've decided to be more involved in it because it has helped me a lot. As a kind of "presentation" I'll share my story like others did before.

Epiphany

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I'm slowly Re-reading Cupid's Poisoned Arrow.

Now, I worry that this will confuse people in that it will seem like a sales pitch, but the book is replete with wisdom. I think the great thing about it is that it uses knowledge that already existed. It sews these pieces together which have been waiting for it.

What do I want to achieve...

I am coming up to 4 weeks without porn, prostitutes or masturbation. I am not missing these and I'm finding life without these is less stressful than I imagined. Rather than using these things something to turn to when things get tough I'm much more balanced.

this existence

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so this existence is often troublesome. was it buddha who suggested that desire in the root cause of suffering? and then jesus suggested we love our neighbors...it still can be such a difficult passage from the cradle to the grave.

Hrm hrmm.

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Been about a month. Nothing too much has happened since then.

I've been busy trying to improve my art and mental self, and Merc has been busy doing things with his dad. We see and talk to each other very often still. Just not so much on the sex part, mainly because I'm not on the pill yet, which is why we're holding back.
I can say things aren't so bad. Things have felt a lot calmer, and my sex urges were at a minimum. Merc is the same, even though he probably doesn't realize it.

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