Rejection

I discovered this website while looking into the benefits of abstinence of ejaculation. I guess I feel like my brain chemistry is a bit off, so I've been doing everything I can to get it back to "normal". I've suffered for a long time with social anxiety and depression. I think I've pulled out of the depression part.

You can skip to the bolded text below. The unbolded is a lot of my history that might bore you, although it is relevant.

I am a little over 30 years old.

So I've gone 14 days without an orgasm or masturbation. In this period I have watched a lot of pornography on the internet, but refused to masturbate to it. When I didn't watch porn on the internet I would go as far as to go to department stores and feel women's skirts, blouses, and panties on the racks. This would trigger an naughty arousal in me. The soft nylon and silky fabrics gave me an arousing feeling.

I am new to this forum and even after spending 2 hours reading I feel so much better about my sexual frustrations. One subject or detail that I have not seen yet though is regarding my Subject line. My wife and I are in love. We have been together for over 2 years now. Like all of our past relationships, the sex was intense for us for about the first 6 months of our marriage. As we grew closer together and in love the sex became less frequent. At first I was very disappointed about this because I was still very much attracted to my wife.