stamina

So, to update from the last post, it's been around the month mark since my last "Smorgasbord", and I'm in the thick of the "manly surge".

So the last few days I've been breaking all my rules one after another. First on wednesday I watched some porn for the first time for about a month. Boredom was the driver who steered me to close to be able to escape the gravity of all the gorgeousness just waiting for me to appreciate it. I didn't masturbate, I just enjoyed the feelings of excitement and tried to exercise my abilities in controlling and transforming it. So in that respect it did serve a little bit of purpose. Then yesterday I did much of the same with masturbation without porn involved.