As a single person I always pondered what it was like to be finally rid of mother nature's nagging of go find a female NOW. I experienced that, and I must say it wasn't what I expected. I had a balance, and certainly contentment with what I had, but that was it. Everything was fine, bland, plenty of energy, happy, but bored. I had all the same work load, 40 hour a week job, with cooking and cleaning and maintaining several properties. I did it all, still happy, but just missing that extra push that I had. I didn't crave it, but I did miss it.

For anyone located near California's central coast there is a fantastic Resource and Support Group called Breakthrough which touts itself as "A community of men deidcated to making real improvements in the quality of men's lives." The program is located in Carmel, just South of Monterey.

The program consists of 17 weekly meetings or workshops that cover the basics of self-esteem, intimacy, boundaries, feelings, communication, healing, the male role, addictive behavior and boyhood trauma.

I've been completely porn-sober since March. March was my second slip-up after a four to six month period of success.

Unfortunately, I've been masturbating to porn again. First, I masturbated to sexual fantasy, then more intense sexual fantasy, and finally porn. This sucks.

I'm not starting off at square one though. I didn't subscribe to the site, just used the preview page. No videos. Still my vitality is diminished, I'm on edge and unhappy at the moment.

Fortunately, I've gone over 3.5 months without porn and know how to disengage and ignore limbic signals/impulses. I just have to do it. Starting today.

Hi, this is my first post.

I am a little over 30 years old.

So I've gone 14 days without an orgasm or masturbation. In this period I have watched a lot of pornography on the internet, but refused to masturbate to it. When I didn't watch porn on the internet I would go as far as to go to department stores and feel women's skirts, blouses, and panties on the racks. This would trigger an naughty arousal in me. The soft nylon and silky fabrics gave me an arousing feeling.

Here is my story. I discovered porn when I was young via my dad's nudie magazines. What I didnt realize till recently is that I guess he was/still is an addict. For as long as I can remember they were always in the house. Not in plain view but somewhere in the basement. My mother tolerated it but never liked it. As far as I know he looks at porn on the web even now at 73.

I've never blogged before, but thought I would give it a try to see if it will help me in my efforts to give up masturbation.

About a month ago I made a commitment to my wife that I would give up masturbation. We have been married for almost 19 years and the issue of me masturbating has been a huge issue in our marriage. I have always had an addiction to masturbation and masturbated on average 4 to 5 times a week, regardless of whether or not we were having intercourse. I also had a habit of using porn to masturbate which intensified when we started having marital difficulties.

My OCD is seriously making me worry over alot of things. I had trouble sleeping while dealing with some thought that wouldn't go away, I wake up and there it is. OCD is normal for me after a relapse, its amazing how it manifests itself. I've been feeling alot more social and whatnot but I'm still neurotic. I still have a tendency to 'check' things or to ruminate over a certain thought, no matter how odd the logic behind it may seem. I've had some mood swings, but the poor me feeling is no longer here. I do still deal with the internal repressed baggage, and it ain't pretty.