Submitted by 21 on Mon, 2010-01-04 09:02
I'm a 25-year old male. I found this site somehow by searching for information about serotonin (THANKS to GOD for the fortune).
As I read, I found there is a lot bigger picture about how things are working then I expected. A picture of reward system and addiction. A picture that can explain my experience with my urges, sexual desire, orgasms, and hangovers after them. So I gained more knowledge about how my brain works.
Submitted by Bob The Builder on Sun, 2012-02-05 13:11
Hello all! I have been reading blogs and message board posts on this forum for a couple of months now, and have finally decided to start sharing my journey.
I am a 24 year old male who has been addicted to porn and masturbation since I was at least 12 years old. I used to masturbate just about every day, and sometimes several times a day. I started off masturbating to soft core porn, and progressed to straight up sex videos. I also have masturbated in the shower to images of women I have known in my head.
Submitted by lookingahead on Tue, 2012-01-31 09:55
It was day 36 into my current reboot attempt when I finally had a wet dream. The sexual urges have taken many twists and turns since I began. The first six days were the most intense. Day six was the tip of the iceberg. That was the day I craved a release more than ever. After day six, it began to subside until about day 11/12, where it peaked again. Then, through the teens, it then flatlined until day 20, where it peaked again. Throughout the 20's, it flatlined again. So those were the three sharp peaks in the urges during abstinance. Now I am on day 40.
Submitted by Gregor on Mon, 2012-01-30 11:25
Submitted by James2568 on Thu, 2012-01-26 21:34
I have found that reading posts on other’s recovery experience has been very helpful to me in my recovery, so I thought I should contribute. Besides, journaling or “blogging” may help me to some extent. Anything is worth a shot at this point.
Submitted by kurisu on Mon, 2012-01-23 20:42
For my last couple of relapses, I feel like I've somehow been spared the usual withdrawal symptoms. It's only Day 3 but I am having a surprisingly good day. Maybe it helps that my relapses have been few and far between compared to the past--less dopamine abuse, fewer adverse effects?
Submitted by kurisu on Fri, 2012-01-20 22:56
This one really sucks.
As I wrote in my last blog, Scholar Girl de-friended me on facebook. Now, we all know that's not really that big of a deal. It could have been for any number of benign reasons. Knowing that, did I respond to this development in an objective and mature way?
NO.
Submitted by bozzi6 on Fri, 2012-01-20 19:20
I'm currently 3 hours into day 13 of PMO free and have extreme irritability with depression.
How long would the process take to get into the "flatline" stage? What exactly is the "flatline" stage purpose in terms of brain chemistry recovery? How long is this period and what feelings would i expect during and after this stage?
Thanks.
Submitted by abc123 on Tue, 2012-01-17 11:33
Hello,
I am 26 years old. I am into my 10th week of no PMO. I do not know if I am healed or not. During week 8, I had to take the airplane. At this time, I felt like I had no desire. However, a young woman came to sit next to me. She was nice and she talked to me a little bit. Then suddenly I got a very strong erection. I was very surprised because like I said, I felt like I had no desire earlier in the day. When I try to simulate a conversation with a woman in my head, I never get erections.
Submitted by kurisu on Mon, 2012-01-16 20:52
Hi everybody,
Scholar Girl, the woman I've been chatting with for awhile now, has de-friended me on facebook. Facebook was our means of communication. I am a mess. It sounds so immature for a 30-year-old, but it's true. I really can't handle these kinds of things. I don't know how not to make this be about me (which it probably isn't). I even thought we were becoming good friends.
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