shame

First time visitor - Time for a change in my life...

First of all, kinda strange putting these things out there for everyone to see, but I know it will be helpful for my healing process and maybe others. This is my first time posting anything about my problems.
I've been looking at porn since college which is around the time the internet took off and was available at speeds faster than dial-up. Over ten years later I have a great wife and kids. But I have struggled with porn all the years, off and on.
The posts in this forum are so powerful because I have so much empathy with many of them.

I can't get over it nor channelize it.

Hi everybody, I am Eric from Manchester, U.K. I'm a newly joined member to this forum & desperately seeking help in any form to get rid with my addiction, size and psychological issues. I'm 27 year old software professional who got divorced just few years back mainly due to my small penis size. This divorce case has made my life miserable with many ill psychological affects which even motivated me to become a cross dresser and change my sexual gender on few occasions.But somehow I managed to control my weird inner urges and stayed focus on my profession.

Releasing fear and shame

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It’s been almost three weeks of abstinence from PMO now- probably my longest time ever, and certainly the longest time since I ever tried to count.

It’s far from the first time I’ve tried. Yet, for whatever reason, this time I’ve had to “struggle” with it far less than any of my past attempts, even though I’ve come away with far more success than ever before. Why is this?

A New Beginning

So it begins. I've found this community, and it's a good place. I've long hoped something like this existed, but I didn't know how to find it.

I feel really grateful to have found it. Other resources I had found in the past about quitting porn had been heavily religious and made me feel very uneasy, as if I was being sold something, and my vulnerability was being taken advantage of for that purpose. But here I don't feel pressured to conform to any particular belief system.

♥ - Loneliness versus shame

Do we talk about shame too much and not enough about loneliness? It could be that we have oversubscribed to the toxic shame theory when that is at most only a component of addiction and interpersonal relationship troubles.

A great analogy about our perception of ourselves

An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck.

One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full. For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments.

Guilt and Shame

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A thought came to me today. Yes, those do happen from time to time. smiley

I've wondered about why someone like me in the past has often not seemed to experience a lot of the negative downsides post orgasm that others have. And a possible link has occurred to me, and I wondered how it played out among our group here. Let me explain what I'm thinking.

It seems people here who have some of the worse symptoms after an orgasm are also the ones who tend to feel a lot of guilt and/or shame.

Quotes

Quotes are my sort of Scriptures, only most actually make sense. When I feel lost or upset, I read quotes. enjoy

Today I bent the truth to be kind, and I have no regret, for I am far surer of what is kind than I am of what is true. ~Robert Brault

"An old belief is like an old shoe. We so value its comfort that we fail to notice the hole in it. ~Robert Brault,

What matters is not the idea a man holds, but the depth at which he holds it. ~Ezra Pound

Believing is easier than thinking. Hence so many more believers than thinkers. ~Bruce Calvert

Shame

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http://www.reuniting.info/node/1786#comment-5475

That is a link to a post that I found earlier. I am amazed how much of that describes me. I know shame has been discussed here. I have just been resisting reading about it I guess. I see now that the embarrassment feeling I keep talking about is this that I could not express that feeling right or well. It is all explained in this article. That is what I have been trying to explain about myself.

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