addictions

Hi Everyone,

I am very happy and somewhat surprised to find myself here. I have had a 40plus year addiction to PMO. I have lived a double life, pretending that my "private" addiction really wasn't that big a deal, after all other people are hooked on drugs, alcohol etc.

My partner and I have recently drastically changed our diet. We've dropped all grains, seeds and legumes and all refined carbs (sugars) from our diet. Essentially a Primal/Paleo diet. The changes for me have been astounding. Numerous nagging little complaints I've had over my life have vanished. IBS completely resolved. Lactose intolerance, gone! My vision is better, colors are brighter. Naturally sweet fruit tastes way sweet now. My BP has lowered significantly. (From Good to "fantastic!")

We've been reading through "Cupid" and wow, is my husband is starting to recognize how addictive his behavior is, things he never knew were addictions, but I did. He has alot of OCD-type behaviors, one of which is a kind of addiction to worrying, if that makes any sense.

I used to smoke marijuana a lot. Now I don't.
I used to drink a pint of rum at a time sometimes everyday. Now I don't.
I still eat out of control sometimes but I have done soooo much better with that now. (I have a tendency towards bulemic behavior at its worst but it's an over focus on food now.)
I used to masturbate a lot especially when I didn't feel well during my suicidal days which ended pretty much 9 months ago... but I still have thoughts like I don't want to be here once in a while.