freedom

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in a while so I thought I'd let you all know how I'm going.

63 days is the longest I have ever gone without looking at Porn!!!!! By quite a bit! & that is saying a LOT as I have tried upwards of 100 times in the past to quit without success (i.e. before I found yourbrainonporn.com)

That said, I have been weak in terms of my related massage parlour addiction and have gone 5 times in this time. That plus one time by myself means that I have M 6 times essentially in 63 days.

Masturbation to many of us can be equated to slavery. Slavery is the best term because it truly feels that our minds have been banished from the world beyond the sexual energies around us. As we progress in this addiction we begin to see and objectify others sexually, frequently and intensely, and those who we do not sexually objectify we begin to value only in terms of how they can further our sexual pursuits. Our values become skewed.

I can't believe it's been so long since I posted.
I'm not dead! I am porn free - but actually I think the correct term for me would be masturbation free. The porn is just the delivery vehicle. The beer delivering the alcohol.
I am no longer a groaning, lonely, embarrassed, self-loathing idiot who hides at night to masturbate.
Sure I stay up to late. I think I'm wired that way. I wake up tired. I wish I could kick that.
But I have loads more energy and focus. WAY more self confidence and time to do the things I want to do.
The walking around in a daze is just a distant memory.

I made it!

last week I said Christmas Day would be my 15 day mark. That was my goal, and I did it.
it is now day 16. I have no real desire to orgasm anymore.
I like how much easier life is when I am not in constant fear of my mood swings.

here are some of the benefits I've experienced:
*better ability to focus - I think being off a high and low addiction cycle helps the ADD mind