lucid dreams

I notice incredible heart energy present at times in my dream / lucid dream state. I say heart because I don’t know how else to describe it. It’s linked to sexual energy but not inherently sexual. I interact in ways that I’m not sure my conscious being could actually execute. The energy seems to morph the interactions in a fluid dance. Hesitancy or doubt of any form is gone. Vulnerability is absolute. Love is pure. Each step reinvigorates the process as if tiring is impossible. When I get into this world, I often don’t want to get out of bed because that will end the magic.

I'm not exactly sure how to pose this. I seem to have clicked back toward the mode I was in when I abstained for four plus months. That's good because it's been not so great in the between state. I can tell from the nature of my dreams and how they can incorporate a karezza-esque experience combined with how I'm doing during the day and relating to others. It's not perfect, but a tad better. Karezza fantasy sounds almost nuts, but others have noticed dream-based karezza fantasy so I'm not alone.

I shall explain another day in my Astral City blog why I believe that learning to have Out of Body Experiences is probably one of the most important skill a human should learn while physically alive on Earth... The fact is that I have believed so for many, many years. None of my previous close encounters with Astral projection were spontaneous, so I can't say I have a gift for it. On the contrary, I always have had to work hard for them, so much so that I often got discouraged.

I'm a 37-year-old single man who has a long history of experimentation with sexual alchemy with little success. Having found this site, I'm hopeful that the approach here might actually work for me, as I've definitely resonated with the idea of me being a slave to dopamine in many ways as well as other things. As you read what I hope doesn't become a long, self-absorbed treatise on my entire life, you might be able to help me as I start out on this new and exciting path. I also hope to bring my experiences to this community and help those who I'm able.