Spiritual Growth

Sex embodied...Day 18th

"Orgasm is the killer of the inner Buddha"...Taoist Buddhist

♥ - Happiness as a choice?

I've been bothered by this for a while. I thought I posted about this before, but I can't find it. It's philosophical and perhaps there is no one answer. It seems the whole world is happiness obsessed. But perhaps I don't get it and someone can enlighten me.

Time Dilation, higher vibration, energy beings and a "dream" I had.

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I'm not quite sure how to classify this post, but I had a "dream" the other night that ties in with the sense of time dilation that has been noted by several people and possible higher vibratory levels related to spiritual growth.

My plan is not working

All that stuff I wrote the other day about focusing on spiritual growth and just letting go of the desire to find a partner, well it all sounds really good, but I don't think it is all that easy to do. I want to release feelings of neediness and desperation that seem to accompany my relationships with men I am attracted to, not necessarily the attraction that I feel towards men. I don't really think that I act desperate or needy with them, it is mostly kept inside, but I'm sure that it is recognized on some unconscious level.

My new blog

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I have been feeling pretty good lately. I had several bad months, beginning back in June, in which I seemed to be just jumping from one painful romantic entanglement to the next. None of which had any kind of physical expression, so it was just all the pain without any of the fun.

The 3 week hill

I know that there is the 3 week thing, that after that amount of time it gets easier not to have to indulge in a self degrading habit, being orgasm and ejaculation. I could not seem to break out of a weekly cycle. I was able to really do well. I was finishing a second week which made me proud. But I had great trouble controlling my thoughts and my pants. I would be up for hours trying to quell the hunger. I was about to go on a week long church program for youth and knew that if I could hold myself till then, that week would be a free 1 week and I would be over the hill.

Healing Body, Mind and Spirit

2009 is already proving to be a very good year as I build upon the progress I made in 2008.

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