my story

Ok. This is my first stab at blogging. I've started at day 1572 (today) because that's about how long (4 years and 16 weeks) I've been exploring Marnia's ideas and inviting others to explore it with me. Finding a partner to do even 3 weeks of the non-sexual Exchanges is something that I have not yet been able to create. (This part of the Exchanges is important to me due to its potential effect on healing the effects of early childhood bonding trauma.) I'm looking forward to connecting with other members of this on-line community.

Last days have been full of mood swings. On friday we had a little reuniting with some friends I have studied with. The evening went great. In the morning a wake up with hangover and a strong anxiety feelings which started imediately after I opened my eyes. After an hour of relaxing and breathing techniques I managed to fall asleep again. I wake up after 3 more hours and anxiety was about 80 % gone. Rest of the day was not very pleasurable, but manageable.

So it has been 33 days of no PMO.

It seems that depressions are over, I haven't got any in the last week maybe more. Ocassional anxiety, self loathing, or low self esteem periods are present, but they usually do not last more than an hour.

Hi,

I've been around for a while, reading some of your stories and experiences with rebooting. I'd like to thank everyone who is sharing their thoughts here. It was very helpful.
I wanted to share my own story. Hoping to get some feedback from you guys. Maybe it also help someone. Please excuse my bad english, I'm not a native speaker.

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When I was about 23 years old, I used to consider myself pretty good in bed. Sometimes I was a bit shy around girls, but I was always able to get over it. I've got no problem geting it up and minimum problems with premature ejaculation.

My wife and I have been married more than forty years. We are best friends and have a very good relationship, but the sex all-but ended about four years ago. I have always been driven by the goal of achieving a climax. However, I have always needed a great deal of stimulation to reach the goal. I’ve never had a premature ejaculation – when I was younger, a quickie was at least 20 minutes. Nowadays, it usually takes about an hour – sometimes a lot more.

Hello again.

Thanks all for your comments on my first post. You successfully failed to discourage me from posting again

Greetings.

I am a 23-year-old single male. A few months, a female coworker took me clothes-shopping because she thought my wardrobe needed help (it did, and because I can hardly bring myself to care, it has already sunk back to almost the same depths of disrepair ).