The Empty Boat
Who can free himself of achievement and fame
Then descend and be lost
Amidst the masses of men?
He will flow like Tao, unseen....
He will go about like life itself
With no name and no home.
Simple is he, without.
To all appearances he is a fool.
His steps leave no trace.
He has no power.
He achieves nothing.
He has no reputation.
Since he judges no one,
No one judges him.
Such is the perfect man.
His boat is empty.
[source: http://www.osholeela.com/chuangtzu.exe ]
Further to my mentioning the Vama Marg in my review of Peace Between the Sheets:
I just went to a great solstice party last night. I was really struck by the high quality men there. There were a number of men who were extremely sexy but who were not full of themselves and had girlfriends whose looks were not the standard of beauty. Lots of foxy ladies at the party with little tits, lots of big women comfortable in their lavish bigness. Lots of men affectionate towards their women and not flirtatious with other women. This one guy even went straight to work cleaning up the destroyed kitchen while the party raged on in the livingroom.
Still working on looking towards the light. Sometimes harder than it sounds. Sometimes the little things (screwing someone's directions up..funny the things that can knock us off kilter.)
Anyway. I was very upset with myself, down on myself, kicking myself (you think you know where this is going but you don't!)
No. I didn't. But thanks for asking.
I'm gonna hold you, I'm gonna hold you....I'm gonna hold you....in....the....light.... David LaMotte (In the Light)
I am going to look towards the light.
I can now see it out of the tunnel I have been in.
It has been 21/2 months that I have been waiting for the sun, crawling towards the sun and now I can feel it getting warmer.
I'd really like it if we could have a sustained dialogue in this forum about birth control. I've created a post on the topic including partner-based birth control and nonhormonal male birth control methods, both of which you can view here: http://www.reuniting.info/node/691.
Had a great evening last night: shared great bodywork, delicious dancing, nonorgasmic sex!
I found these comments by Valerie Hunt interesting when viewed from the angle of human healing potential through sharing of energy fields. I found this in an interview done for the One Healthy World newsletter (www.1healthyworld.com):
What I am learning is that my experience of life is a direct reflection of what I pay attention to, ie, what I cultivate awareness of.
Much of my cultivation of inner power over the past few years has grown from the soil of fear, sadness, and dissatisfaction.
I have come from this position of attention, telling myself: "I must cultivate my energy because this society drains me; I must eat well because my environment is toxic; I must breathe deeply to oxygenate my cells so that I am not prone to cancer; must learn to deeply relax to counter the effects of accumulated stress."
Did anyone get the reference??
I'm Moving Out...
Today is the day. I sleep in the apt tonight. I have been building up to this day for some time as you all know. Well it is here. It is a bittersweet experience. I want to end the deadness of my negative relationship - I know in my heart that it is over. I don't want to move out of my house. My biggest fear is that my boys will someday look back and see that my moving out was leaving them. It's not 100% untrue though is it?