I have gotten away. For a work conference with friends so it was not all pleasure but it was pleasurable.
I got outside, supported by old friends, met new friends, and relaxed. I have loads of stuff to come home to at home and I could just break down and cry if I let myself - which I probably should because it is good for me. But this week has been life affirming.

Okay, so here is an update on my sexual exchanges recently:

I haven't posted for a while. It's been an odd period. Having visitors, visiting others, I've found really disrupts routine, especially new routines that haven't become fixed. What happens then is that old routines reassert themselves. I think I've finally cottoned on the the fact that it's okay when others are around that our attention which previously we would give to each other should become easily fragmented; and that when we're alone again there's no need to resent the period of 'separation' so much as relish the possibilities of new found togetherness.

Been working some serious overtime lately but, somehow, despite the urge to numb out to the stress and worry with porn, i haven't. It's been about 3 weeks. That isn't to say i haven't orgasmed since i have, but it was with a partner and it was slow and conscious. I think it makes sense to deal with these issue in order or porn (1) and then (2) sacred sex. For me, i think there needs to be some levels of competence and progression if this will work in the long run. It's cool some people can do them at once.

Greetings all -

In another thread I recently decided to share my journey with my addiction to image-perfecting, an addiction that I feel is prevalent in women in this culture, is the converse side of porn addiction, and which basically undermines women's abilities to live comfortably in and share their true essence and womanhood.