Today is day 46 of my new try to let go of the PM habit. So far it goes quite good although I had a fall back the day before yesterday. Till then I had only masturbted 3 times, but without porn which makes a huge difference (The only reason I did it was because I didn't have sex with my girlfriend for a while due to us being seprated). When I only focus on the sensations without indulging in mental fantasy's it feels much more like a wholesome experience and I feel it was good to let go of the excess energy. Hopefully in time I will get used to having more energy and won't need any masturbation at all.
For contrast, two days ago I fell for the lure of porn, and watched it and masturbated to it. It felt much less good, and since then I feel a much stronger pull to watch it again. It is quite disturbing. I guess I can see the re-addicting effect of it in clear view now. I keep telling myself:"Do I want to enjoy the sex of others and feel frustrated by the things I cannot have or do I fully want to enjoy my own sexuality?" That seems to help swaying the arument in my head.
Anyway, so far so good. With ups and downs, but I feel I'm on my way to healing my sexuality.