ALL SYSTEMS GO!

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Hello Reuniting!!

Judging by my 3rd post today, I think I am so in a high and good spirits now.

I already resolved my dilemma about my ex boyfriend! So our chapter is over. How did this happen?
When I checked my email, it was quite odd for me to discover an email coming from him. The subject wasn't that romantic of some sort, so I checked the contents. It was some sort of written instructions to his staff about funds and what to do, and how to do those stuff, which were alien to me. I asked myself was this email intentionally sent to me, or was there something of an accidental click of my name from his address book. Not to mention one of the CC in the email was his sister-in-law! Talk about accidental emails. I panicked as if what to do? what to do? But then when I calmed down, I realized that it was the answer to my dilemma question, will he be okay when I leave? And I think that email, whether it was meant for me or not, the emails says it all. He is still working his job, he seems to be in control of things (as always), and it was a sure sign of assurance for me that he is going to be okay! I may have not heard him call me and say, you can go, and I will be fine (which was what I really wanted). So in that email, I sent him a separate email. In my email, I thanked him for everything! I wasn't able to write all the reasons of my gratitude, but there, I thanked him for a lot of reasons. I also told him about my dilemma, and that finally, it is resolved with his accidental email sent. After the email I felt as if a huge boulder was taken off my shoulder, and maybe that is why I feel so light and great!

I don't want to deny that there are still thoughts about him here and there, but I am not going into emotional fits! Unlike a few days back where it was all confusing and emotionally draining me! It was really weakening!

My bags and documents are complete! So I am all systems go! I am not sure yet when I am able to again able to get internet access. But I will post insights as soon as I can. I am still on my COUNTING MY BLESSINGS phase. And my gosh it is really so optimistic and positive energy bringer that I my pessimism aren't having any shot!

Thank you reuniting for the unending support!!!

I AM HAPPY
I AM POSITIVE
I AM RECOVERING
I AM STAYING IN LOVE

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Blessings uncountable.

That's great news. You've earnt that relief by sending such a positive message to him.

(trueloveskiss: the answers are in Aimee's previous posts.)

On the topic of blessings counted: I discovered an unfamiliar one by Borges today (hoping it fits). These things are 'modest gods' indeed, but powerful if we pay heed to them.

'Shinto'

When sorrow lays us low
for a second we are saved
by humble windfalls
of the mindfulness or memory:
the taste of a fruit, the taste of water,
that face given back to us by a dream,
the first jasmine of November,
the endless yearning of the compass,
a book we thought was lost,
the throb of a hexameter,
the slight key that opens a house to us,
the smell of a library, or of sandalwood,
the former name of a street,
the colours of a map,
an unforeseen etymology,
the smoothness of a filed fingernail,
the date we were looking for,
the twelve dark bell-strokes, tolling as we count,
a sudden physical pain.
Eight million Shinto deities
travel secretly throughout the earth.
Those modest gods touch us–
touch us and move on.

~

(One other thing -- posts in the "News, Humour & Inspiration" category are easy to miss.)

Thank you Everyone for your Encouragement and Support

@Beefheart!
I read your Shinto poem, and it is so wonderful. Yep my counting of blessing includes the clouds, the skies, the weather, everything that I lose count already! It was such a great relief for me to know he is going to be okay. Truth to be told, I still have instances of worries about him, but then, I need to move on with my life, and so does he right? I know he will be really taken care of.

@Marnia
I think it was really a great sign whether the email was intentional or not ( i think though it was intentional - he is keen to details!). I feel that that was his way of saying he will be okay. He knows that once we again discuss emotional stuff about how great our relationship was and the hindrances thru it, will just make matters worse especially for me.

I am so happy that now I am starting on a new chapter of my life!

Thank you everyone!

I am Happy
I am Positive
I am Recovering!

Amazing

If intentional, very subtly and cleverly done. If unintentional, pure serendipity. The universe (or God) does work in mysterious ways! I'm so glad that reassured you about your ex, and I hope you can get settled safely and quickly in your new location. Thank you for being such an inspiration.

Just counting 2 more days and off I go!

Thank you enlightenmentgirl!

Yep, it was a great blessing that the email was sent to me on the right time when I needed it the most!
He is one smart old goat I would say! And I think it was time for us to really move on.
How I wish he would really accept my advice about self-help stuff, he's got too many issues about himself, and I hope he'd grow more!

Well happy times as always!