Another week has passed, another week of no PMO has endured, and I have not even recognized that I am 50 days PMO free!
I have blogged a few days ago that I feel a lot of frustrations around the forum because there are a lot of relapses that's been going on. And thanks to Emerson, and his encouragement, I am now able to write out another blog. What I write about are all based on my personal experiences, insights, and strategies that got me on my 54 days PMO free, and really not a difficult task.
As written on the title, The Difference of ACCEPTANCE from EXPECTATION, I came to discover that how we react to every situation is one of the keys to our Recovery.
What do we really want to happen in our lives? Our common ground is that we want to Recover and be free from our addictions. I am a PMO addict for so many years now, if I am not mistaken, almost half of my life I am an addict. Where does this Acceptance/Expectation come in?
Everyday of our recovery, some would say it is a "struggle", "challenge" , or "fight". Just by definition, we are already quoting it on an expectation pattern. We expect that we are able to overcome or beat out these problems. We are expecting that in a span of time, we can be free from our addiction. With expectation comes disappointments. Which leads to our Relapse. Recovery is not like a light switch that when you want it gone, it's going to be turned off. And everyday we have sexual thoughts, imaginations and all those temptations. But with our expectation to stay clean, we tend to beat ourselves up for having those thoughts, or we rationalize that we think we are gay/lesbian, or that we are failures, and the list goes endlessly.
However, when we say that our everyday to Recovery is a "wonderful journey" or "a way to a better life", is an acceptance that we have our addiction, and that we are taking our daily journey to let go of our addiction. Every day, we see it on a positive attitude to life, that when we are tempted, we can say, it's all part of our recovery. We don't have to beat ourselves up, since we accepted that it is a daily journey to have these temptations. And the longer we are able to stay away from our addiction the happier, the stronger, and the lighter we feel.
I hope I am making sense.
And that I am able to open up some minds to further understanding of how our brain works.
My brain is getting sleepy.
Take care my dear friends