Two weeks of adjustment to a new environment, looking for internet, and have been busy with the moving, work and all that was waiting for me when I arrived here!
I am happy and thankful to announce that I am exactly 32 days of PMO free life! It was an easy month, although with some anxious times, and temptations, I am now a stronger and more optimistic person! Due to my busy schedules, I wasn't able to write on a journal my Rehabilitation journey on a daily basis, however, I was able to log one entry. And here it is:
The Big Move, Adjustments, and Letting Go to Start Anew!
It's been weeks since my last visit. And I have been really busy with the flights, transfers and settling down. No PMO episodes so far, but I noticed however that when I am so tired and feeling stressed/anxious, my thoughts about sexual moments with my ex-boyfriend comes to my mind. And gladly, I am now able to divert myself into thinking the blessings of a new job, new friends and people who I meet and that these thoughts often appear when it's time for me to go to sleep.
The past few days, have been really a challenge to my optimism since I have the tendency to expect from people respect to the common grounds in the place where I am living now. I share a room with a coworker, who is such a very great friend. However, the entire apartment we share with 6 others as well. I expect them to be respectful in a sense that they do their own cooking, laundry, etc, and clean afterwards. Because I have the "CLEAN AS YOU GO" mantra. Been a tough week not to be swayed by negative incidents to go negative and go on bad temper.
I had several attempts to self-Karezza, and it was not that long moments. I just get a few minutes of tuning into my body, but due to the busy and unscheduled activities I can't have the time luxury yet.
Officially I am 27 days PMO-free and Rehabilitated, but with a few sudden mental thoughts of lovemaking. Happily I am able to divert my mental focus to OPTIMISM and the counting of blessings.
TOO SLEEPY that I can't continue.
Til the next time!
I AM REHABILITATED!!!!
that was the entry I wrote on my journal.
And while I was looking forward to my blogging online tonight, I have discovered something, although I have observed this new cycle to Rehabilitation, and I found it so far to be effective, but I need the help of our Reuniting family if they can try to practice this new cycle too. Sort of study.
Here is what I have been practicing since my counting my blessings
Counting my blessings (Thinking positive and being grateful) ----> ANXIETY/STRESS/WORRIES-------> Reminding myself the blessings of each Anxiety/Stress/Worries-----> Happier Mood
Every morning from the time I wake up, I say THANK YOU for my health, food, friends, family, everything positive I say thank you.
Then when I get to encounter negative people I say to myself "Thank You for being negative,because you remind me to stay strong and positive. And when I do that I feel better. The more I am able to count my blessings and being grateful for my blessings, I become happier, and in lighter mood. I also feel good about myself.
In my addiction case, I say to myself, Thank you for my temptations because I now know that I am stronger, and more focused and healed person.
I hope this cycle will really help others too.
I am Happy
I am Strong
I am Rehabilitated
I am Optimistic