I am on a bit lighter mood, although I have a few bouts of sadness here and there, I am refocusing myself on the brighter side.
It really is a difficult task, that I had to stay away from writing insights here in Reuniting so that once I share my insights, they are all in an unbiased mode. Not affected by any emotional turmoils that is been going on.
But this is an exception. Hahaha.
I did self-karezza for 2 consecutive days now, reconnecting myself to my love for my body, since I lost touch with it a few days back when my separation anxiety kicked in. I am reading my gratitude book so I am slowly back on track to complete positive attitude!
In my previous blog, I had a plan schedule to practice self-Karezza during happy times. But like I said, I did self-karezza for 2 days now and discovered that it is more pleasurable and more effective if self-Karezza is done during happy and positive times. Why did I say so?
I think what I did for the 2 consecutive times is not a complete expression of Love to oneself, but rather half was for expression of love for oneself, half is for the release of stress. It is sort of a lighter version of Masturbation, which I happened to be addicted to. Although I stayed away from touching my clitoris and focused on my breasts, it was still a great feeling, and I was even aware when to stop when I feel it is beyond Karezza and that I began to turn up the heat. As soon as my need to heat-up started, I completely stopped it. It was then I was so happy to find strength to it.
I also discovered, that arousal or heating-up is caused about by not taking deep breaths during caresses. I was really observing that taking in deep breaths makes me more sensitive of my entire body's reaction, not just the contact of my palms to my breasts. But when I didn't take deep breaths, and I felt I was heating up, and my sensation was focused on my vagina, and my breast alone. It wasn't a holistic experience! Thus I might suggest to practice Karezza when you are on a happier mood, and not because you need to release these pent-up hunger. If you need a little release and love, make sure you are aware when you are heating-up or feeling the love.
Sometimes we cannot spot the difference, except in our breathing.
Thank you god for an amazing day
We are all united and recovered