31 Gigabytes of Porn deleted

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I can't believe I had that much on my computer. I caved in today. I jerked off and I feel ashamed. I know I don't know anyone on this blog but I'm using it because of the accountability factor. I could re-read these journal entries and watch my moods rise and lower. I was on a good road for a few days but just couldn't handle it today.

So. I deleted the porn off my computer and am adding a porn blocker. The strange thing is that even though I masturbated my nuts still feel sore. I was tempted to go for round two but I decided to write in here instead.

This is how I'm feeling. Since it's only been about 5 days since I PMO'd this feels pretty bad. I gave in that quickly? I can't let this thing return to my life and I have to get over it for good.

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Hey! Be gentle with yourself

For some brains, Internet porn is extremely addictive. That means there have been very real (hopefully temporary) changes in your brain that make relapse super easy, and willpower tough.

Read this page on withdrawal...and how cravings get worse for a time...and you'll understand even better: What does withdrawal from porn addiction look like?

Good job dumping the files and setting up a blocker.

What replacement activities are you employing? Exercise, meditation, socializing and time in nature get great reviews. More ideas here: ♦Solo Tools