Posted here about two years ago for awhile about my initial foray into Karezza with my partner. We tried it initially and loved it...our lives were enhanced but then life got I'm the way and we just fell off that wagon.
And now I'm back. The same issues came up again. Sometimes sex was good, mostly it was okay, and frequently terrifying. One of the other issues we had was that his desire for sex never matched mine. There were many occasions that I wound up in tears thinking it was me, worried that we would never be able to have a whole sexual life together. And beyond Karezza we tried other approaches all of which left me feeling empty...I was never fulfilled the way I was with Karezza.
Thankfully, we are in a good place as a couple. Our relationship is full of love, respect, and laughter. In a month's time we are moving in together. This is a milestone we are both thrilled for.
Last night I asked him if he would want to try this again. He agreed and what happened next was nothing short of amazing. We made love and I wasn't afraid. I was able to be present with him the entire time. And more than anything we were having fun...sharing soft laughter and being completely open. He completely transformed...I felt completely desired and loved during our lovemaking. He was so controlled but also eager to be with me. We both felt a little drunk afterwards and could not stop giggling. I'm not sure that this is the appropriate reaction to lovemaking but it was mentally satisfying to just be able to be with him and not space out as I usually do. It was still very much normal sex...just with a few pauses. Not perfect but this is our first day back...
The only thing that wasn't great was the lack of sensation I had. That's been an issue for sometime now...I'm thinking we really need to slow it down but communicating that part to him is difficult. I don't want to seem demanding or like I'm giving instructions...hopefully I can think of something. Maybe we need to take a break and exclusively work on bonding for now...that feels impossible right now
Anyways just wanted to share. So glad this place is still here....