Well, things continue to get better. This type of lovemaking just seems to work between us. It is a connection that has continued to grow.
However, there is one problem. Currently, Greg & I do not live together. Thus, engaging this way is not always possible everyday. It is something that we both just acknowledge and accept at this point. However, I struggle with it a bit. These past 2 or 3 days we have been with each other and engaging in all sorts of bonding activities but without any sex. Sex was just not possible as we were away with other people. Anyways, I just felt myself getting really crabby not being able to engage that way.
On a conscious level I realize how silly this is. Greg was okay with it and he was encouraging me to be patient, and that it would happen. He also made a point to be very affectionate and sweet otherwise. I just could not stop feeling so needy for it.
Is this normal? Does this go away? I have never been a needy person in relationships so this is strange for me.
We finally were together this evening and it was definitely worth the wait. The whole experience was actually very blissful and I continue to open up to him sexually in ways that surprise and delight us both. We both had a really difficult time holding back tonight, but I think we learned a lot about control. When we feel like with might let go we stop for a few minutes and just rest with each other. We were also both able to completely stop before going there.
It is funny. Before, the orgasm always felt like this possible but challenging goal to attain. Now, I feel like I could have one immediately and throughout the whole encounter. I have also not yet shut down on him since we began doing things this way.
Crazy things are happening to my brain, I feel like. I think Greg secretly likes feeling needed that way though. I am more attracted to him than ever before, and he would probably say the same about me.
Sorry for my scattered, lengthy thoughts. It is just nice to have somewhere to express them. Thank you all so much.