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It's been a while since I last posted. I've made a lot of progress since then, i'd only watched porn like 4 times in the past 4 or 5ish weeks. Unfortunately 1 of those times was last night :/ after 15 days of porn. I did see some graphic pics though and accidentaly ejaculated (while looking at those pictures) once but I didn't watch porn that run through until last night. I hung out with this girl that I've been seeing last night :) and we made out for a bit before she had to go. I went home and sleept for a few hours. I woke up with some major cravings and ended up PMOing. Last night I had a few intense, violent dreams and this morning the chaser effect was pretty strong.

I've been seeing this girl (no clever nickname yet haha) for like 3ish weeks now. I want to tell her about my reboot and that I need some time to heal but anxious to do it and I don't want to tell her to soon. I've already told her that I've never had sex, and that I want to wait a bit, and she was fine with that. Also, When we hook up, I'm getting a lot of fluid leakage coming from Mr. Happy. I dunno if it's just a lot of pre-cum or if it's seman leakage or what, I'm just assuming that it'll go away when I get healthy again. I'd appreciate any advice on the subject.

I've got more to say but I've already wrote a lot. I add on a bit later today or tomarrow. Stay strong my Brother's!

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ehh

Thanks for the comment. Maybe I wasn't clear enough in my post, I know pre-cum is normal, it's just A LOT is cumming out, more then I'm used to. I wasn't sure if it was due to my reboot or if that amount is just what my body makes normally when I'm with a girl.

That's a hard question to answer. I'm 20 years old, and I found the ybop website a year ago this weekend actually when I was 19 and was having erection troubles, HOCD, etc. My first go around I went PMO free for 42 days then releapsed. After that it's been a roller coaster, my longest streak being maybe 3 weeks max. Today was day 1, but I'm trying not to count anymore. It's hard to say because I'm not sure if it's all comulative or if I'm technically back. I'm leagues better then when I first set out but I still have some shitty days/cravings/withdrawl type stuff.

I think that I'm not ready yet for sex. I think it'll be at least a month or two till I'll be good to go. And now that I think about it, the chaser effect is getting weaker for me so that might be a good sign.

Precum

will one day come in *very* handy when you're having sex without using a condom (when the time is right and you know you're both safe partners).