This totally sucks.
I organised someone to meet today and he cancelled at 20 mins notice and i messaged it's not ok. I'm mad about that.
I've organised a cuddle buddy, simply from a desperate need to quell the cravings for O, to visit later tonight and I'm so miserable and anxious I can't get my home in order and welcoming.
I'm shifting between flatline and frantic horniness. It totally sucks.
I'm overcome with anxiety and negative feelings about job searching, despite doing positive things in the morning to set the day up for success, running and affirming and practicing gratitude.
I'm fucking miserable about my life, relationships, work, self-image, finances. And the truth is I've never been better off in life, not EVER. All this crazy shit is happening in my head because of the reboot! I've simply become more aware of the reality and it disturbs the hell out of me!
It's fucked. I'm going thru the motions externally while oscillating between tears of sadness and rage at the reality of the situation. It's fucked yes but I'm going to get through it today. And tomorrow will be better.