I realise how painfully isolated this condition can make me feel. I affirm that I am connected, I am safe and welcome, I am enough in every way, and I am learning a new and waaay better way.
Normally after work I'd go and get some sleazy sex. Insteaf, im going to socialise, meditate, exercise, and attend a spiritual group.
Today I'm catching up with a young gay fella for lunch that looks up to me as a mentor. Guys got no idea what I'm going thru, or even of my past male to male sexusl history, and I'm not gonna tell him.
I'm finding eating and cleaning and sleeping stably a trial. Tonight I'm getting into that stuff! I'm feel motivated by this constant anxiety! I'm mad as hell at this condition and committed to set it straight.