Well, I'm beginning my fourth day of being PMO free and decided to start posting on here. Before I begin, I probably should give you my background.
I'm a healthy, physically fit, attractive (not being cocky at all) 30 year old man. I've been masturbating to porn since I was 13 years old. It started out with me stealing porn magazines as a kid, and progressed into internet porn. Basically, I've been masturbating to hardcore porn since probably around 14 or 15...I never cared much for the soft stuff.
I dated a lot in high school and never had any erection issues at that point. College was when I started to have problems staying erect during sex, losing erections during foreplay, etc. I hooked up with a lot of random women at that point, and my erection issues got worse and worse the older I got.
Fast forward to this summer. I met someone who I had an unreal connection with. We fell hard and fast for each other, but I couldn't stay erect with her. I found her to be SO attractive, and she kept saying that she felt I wasn't attracted to her. Eventually, she pushed me away due to my sexual issues. I was devastated and frustrated, and started thinking I should get some help from my doctor. Then, I found this site.
The more I read, the more it all made sense. The symptoms these guys here were having were the exact same symptoms I was having. I could stay hard as a rock during a porn marathon, but when it came to a real woman, I would lose erections constantly, even though I was extremely attracted to them and wanted sex badly. Looking back, I realized that I've basically been a PMO addict for the last 15 years, and as of a few days ago, I decided to stop.
So, I'm sipping my morning cup of coffee beginning Day 4. The first three days I haven't felt the urge to watch porn, but I think about masturbating an awful lot. Yesterday, I had about 5 episodes of almost a "craving", similar to when I quit smoking. I used the same inner voice I used when I quit smoking, and talked myself through them. I'm going to continue to do that each time it happens in the future.
I did have the first morning wood that I can remember in a VERY long time this morning. It wasn't rock-hard, but I'd say about 80%. I was surprised and in a sense, happy it happened.
I'll post my progress every few days, and thanks in advance if anyone happens to comment.