Last night she offered nothing in bed. We read, and I took her into my arms ("taking" is the operative word) before leaving. Today I wake up horny and full of sex fantasies. I want to lay out a sex/karezza scenario for us to play out. This is a problem because, for her, there is no context. This is true too when I look at porn and get all jacked up. I can spend an hour/s thinking about sex. What she gets, apparently out of the blue, is "Whammo! Baby let's ball!" This is my greatest gift and compliment. How can she refuse? What's wrong with her?
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About that kiss: I have defined myself as a good lover for most of my life. I am tender and powerful; considerate and sensual. I know how to take my time and create the space for her to cum. My heart opens.
I am destroyed when I kiss her and see she's thinking about something else, when she lies passively in my arms. My ego.....when I get her heated up, it feels like she's showing up. It feels like love.
Gee guys, do ya think my looking at porn on Monday led to my orgasm on Sunday? First O since 11/14/09.....who would've thought an enthusiastic wanker for decades would voluntarily go 5 months without cumming? Of course there were lots of reasons (including my bad behavior, going on strike, and all that) that led to having a delicious time with my Isadora. It was pretty much yoni worship and when she asked for an O, I could not deny her (her first since Jan). One thing led to another..... I'm still seeking karezza.
You can start at 1:30....JP talks up to that point
In Spite of Ourselves
(sung with Iris DeMent)
She don't like her eggs all runny
She thinks crossin' her legs is funny
She looks down her nose at money
She gets it on like the Easter Bunny
She's my baby I'm her honey
I'm never gonna let her go
He ain't got laid in a month of Sundays
I caught him once and he was sniffin' my undies
He ain't too sharp but he gets things done
Drinks his beer like it's oxygen
He's my baby
And I'm his honey
Never gonna let him go
hotspring recommended Lama Yeshe to me. I've finally gotten around to Introduction to Tantra: The Transformation of Desire and am finding great comfort there.....thank you dear HS
"...tantric practitioners....take the future result of full spiritual evolution as the very starting point in their path.....to think, speak, and act now as if he or she were already a fully enlightened buddha."
I was watching PBS, "This Emotional Life". Dr. Seth Pollack found that neglected kids don't make oxytocin when they are hugged...damn! I'm gonna hug 'em anyway
Things are going really well on the home front. I am being loving and cut waaaaay back on the needy. I give my Izzy gifts of love and affection every day. She is much less irritable and when she is, I am better able to hear her and respond appropriately. There is much less drama in my life. I'm keeping a sharp eye out for smothering behavior (on my part). Being loving as best I can. 11 days shy of 4 months without an orgasm. I get nostalgic from time to time, but it's really no longer an issue.
I just found an article in Men's Health May 2007 "Her Eyes Say Maybe, But Her Brain Says..." by Louann Brizendine. http://www.louannbrizendine.com/
She's written 2 books: The Female Brain and The Male Brain
She talks about the benefits of oxytocin generating activities. She suggests a 20 second minimum.
Blessed be to those who bond
I am a week short of 3 months sin orgasm
Playing Skip Bo with Isadora. I need to get my 10 off, she leaves a 9 in play. But I don't see it! I am so concerned about my need for a 5 that I don't see the gift she has given.....see a parallel?