I've been pondering my attitude towards sex energy as it can be intensely negative.
I was recently exploring Pharell William's "Happy" videos and ran into some copy cats around the world. It was really sweet and uplifting for me for the most part. One video, however, had a very scantily clad sexy woman doing a dance for the camera. I found myself strongly triggered. So after mulling over the wreckage of my inner world for a while I thought, rather that just staying angry, I'll explore where this energy leads. So I closed my eyes and just let my imagination roam. It went to a rather intense (and short lived) rape scene followed by tossing out the woman like she was a used Kleenex! No wonder I repress this energy!
So I've been thinking, how could I stop repressing this energy and find a way to transform it into a healthier expression on my own (I'm still working on a partner for the Exchanges)? The repression has been severely hard on my body.
Today, the thought of shaking and dance came to my mind. So I'm going to put more energy into those activities and see where they lead. Perhaps the next time I get triggered (which is likely in this sex crazed culture in the summer), I won't be so strongly disturbed and can work on transforming the energy on my own.
Any thoughts? Have any of you tried something similar? Do any of you have similar challenges?