As I explore the local First Nations community, I'm seeing the effect of power politics and how fearful of them I am. As a white male I tend to be viewed at the top of both the racial totem pole and the gender hierarchy. What is often ignored is that white males were once small babies and very much at the bottom of the power hierarchy. Our need for healing is often unconscious and when exposed, often unwelcome and unsupported.
Well, it looks like I'm finally making some progress in breaking out of my isolation. The way I'm doing this kind of took me by surprise and is stirring up matters in need of healing that I thought I'd never have to face.
I've been pondering my attitude towards sex energy as it can be intensely negative.
I've been having some thoughts recently as I continue to heal myself. One thing that I've noticed, is that when get afraid my attraction to on-line sexual stimulation becomes much stronger. Usually I don't fight it, I just put energy into figuring out what is so frightening and once I've figured that out, the urge passes.
What do you think of this?
Slate.com: When men are raped: A new study reveals that men are often the victims of sexual assault, and women are often the perpetrators.
I've been having some interesting results by paying more attention to my dreams and interacting/updating them.
Four years ago, I started a group with a friend which we eventually called "Men for Love". Originally, our mission was to bring some peace to the "Battle of the Sexes". As we were working on our method we settled on "Our Task is not to seek for Love, but to seek and find all the barriers we have built against it within ourselves". We then decided to close it to women and focus on ourselves. This last year, we have been meeting very rarely as my health took a major dive.
As I was watching Diana Richardson's video today (see:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkwMB529Frw) she used a word that triggered me quite powerfully. So I thought I'd write about it and get it out of my system. Perhaps some of you will find my thoughts interesting.
As a quick preface, I'd like to say that I doubt very strongly that Diana used the word with the intentions that I am describing. I see her as someone who shares very strongly my interest in men's healing and most particularly healing our sexuality.