I ran across a rather intriguing documentary (see:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKDJxOm2RfY) of a Ukrainian feminist group called Femen recently. They are unique in that they attract attention by having their most attractive members remove their shirts in protest. I found it intriguing because they describe their approach as using their breasts as "weapons". It's about the most obvious expression of feminine sexualized anger that I've seen yet.
I've been pondering the idea of brain plasticity which I understand is at the root of why people are concerned about pornography. If the brain is plastic then you can program it. Pornography programs it through passive visualization in a certain direction with certain predictable (and not so healthy) results.
I did a Louise Hay workshop recently and have been exploring affirmations. I used to think that they were a little strange and counter my interest in meditation which emphasizes "Choiceless Awareness". But I found that the affirmations that she suggests are simply antidotes to negative "affirmations" that are already active in my mind. It was an interesting workshop.
That connection doesn't look like its going to go anywhere far for me. I was in the store today and specifically got in her line up. We had a short pleasant conversation as usual (She has an amazing smile ). She asked me how the healing was going.
I had another conversation with Padma last night. I was curious to know if what I was doing for her was healing for her. She said "yes" and that all I had to do was be with her for the connection to be healing for her. It seemed a little confusing to me, but I took it for what it was. I also talked with her about a couple of visual flashes I had experienced and thought they might be related to my depression (and the anger that followed it). I had experienced a couple of brief flashes in her presence where I was seeing her without her clothes on.
This morning I started Lesson 12 from "Love is Letting Go of Fear".
[quote] I am responsible for what I see. I choose the feelings I experience, and I decide upon the goal I would achieve. And everything that seems to happen to me, I ask for, and receive as I have asked.
Teach only Love for that is what you are. [/quote]
I like this lesson very much.
This morning I started Lesson 11 from "Love is Letting Go of Fear".
[quote] I can elect to change all thoughts that hurt.
In my mind, there are thoughts that can hurt me or help me. I am constantly choosing the contents of my mind, since no one else can make this choice for me. I can choose to let go of everything but my loving thoughts.
I am determined today that all my thoughts be free from fear, guilt or condemnation whether of myself or others by repeating: I can elect to change all thoughts that hurt. [/quote]
This morning I started Lesson 10 from "Love is Letting Go of Fear".
[quote] I could see peace instead of this
Most of the time I see a fragmented world where nothing seems to make much sense. The bits and pieces of my daily experience reflect the chaos I see within. Today, I welcome a new perception of myself and the world
Repeat to yourself whenever you feel that your peace is threatened by anything or anyone: I choose to see the unity of peace instead of the fragmentation of fear. I could see peace instead of this. [/quote]
This morning I started Lesson 9 from "Love is Letting Go of Fear".
[quote] The past is over. It can touch me not
Fear and Love, guilt and Love, cannot coexist. Only if I keep reliving the past in the future, am I a slave to time. By forgiving and letting go of the past,I free myself of the painful burdens I have carried into the present.Now I can claim the opportunities for freedom in the present without my past distortions.
Today I choose my release from from past pains and suffering by living only in the immediate present. [/quote]
This morning I started Lesson 8 from "Love is Letting Go of Fear". I completed Exchange 3 with my bodiless partner last night too.
[quote=Lesson 8] This instant is the only time there is.
My preoccupation with the past and its projection into the future defeats any aims of present peace. The past is over and the future is yet to be. Peace cannot be found in the past or the future, but only in this instant. I am determined today without either past or future fantasies. I will remind myself: This instant is the only time there is. [/quote]