This is day 1.
This is an introduction.
I ve been a lurker long enough both at this site and yrbraininporn. Thank you.
Making this blog is one of my last attempts to overcome PMO. The other one i feel is reading this book "you are not your brain". Pages are heavy.
Last winter I have some string success of 12-13 days and then relapses.
I guess writing here my feelings will give me new strength. Sometimes I feel so doomed. So desperately alone.
Sometimes i feel life is lifeless. Sometimes i know my attempts to do serious research on math is undermined by my addiction.
So waste of time. So dull perspective of keeping myself into life.
My dreams are often nightmares. Especially after my father passed away, 2 years ago.
Death really got me then, and PMO increased.