The good news is that I've gone 2 months without looking at porn! I'm pretty happy about that. I haven't been quite so good on the MO (using thoughts of past experiences, not porn memories). The first month I MOed five times. The second month I MOed three times. That sets me up for a third month with no MO, right? I'm definitely going to try.
Yesterday morning my girlfriend had to get up early and go to work. I love watching her move, I love watching her get dressed. The shape of her body, in just her underwear, was absolutely heavenly. I could have stayed there and looked at her forever. It's been awhile since I've had an experience like that, and I credit giving up porn and re-wiring to the real thing, an actual person, to bringing some of those back for me. It was a great experience. I look forward to more of them.
Here's the tough part: today my HOCD was TERRIBLE. I had two pretty big spikes. One centered around this guy I saw today, and another centered around a pretty explicit thought I had that involved me participating in gay sex. I hadn't had spikes this bad in awhile, and was actually feeling pretty good about how little HOCD was bothering me lately. Fortunately, they both passed and I leveled out. But man I felt pretty desperate in the middle of them.
I guess it just goes to show you that the recovery isn't linear, as I've seen mentioned on here. Thanks for everyone's advice and support, I'm looking forward to an even better third month.
I should note that my libido has dropped a bit. It may have something to do with my girlfriend's libido dropping as well as she's been very stressed out lately due to work and school and hasn't been feeling very sensual.