I've recently discovered a new community for those suffering with porn induced erectile dysfunction (PIED). It's a forum and I've registered there. Many of you have probably heard of it already.
I've noticed how insanely active it is so that gives me some hope... I guess. Knowing that more and more people are dealing with this problem makes me feel a bit better.
Something I noticed over there has made me very uneasy. I saw that there are MANY people my age there (mid-20s) who have abstained from PMO for far over the 3 month recommendation (and even 6 and 9 months and beyond) who still haven't recovered from PIED and seem to be stuck in flatline limbo. These guys are older and they seem to be virgins who only realised they had ED when they tried to have sex with real women (i.e. they're just like me).
Now on the other hand, literally every single successful rebooting account I've ever read, the guy who recovers has previously actually HAD sex already, and LATER developed PIED.
It seems therefore that there are many out there that are unable to rewire and just get stuck in a state of perpetual flatline. The common ground for these guys seems to be that they are virgins and have been going at it for a bit longer than the younger 18 year olds. They seem to all be in their mid-20s.
I have this deep innate feeling in me that I will just never be able to rewire. I know... I've only made it to day 7 as ridiculous as it is, but that constant nagging feeling is there and I'm so sure that it's the truth. I feel like my brain has run these habitual neurochemical pathways into trenches too deep that there is simply no way I will be able to recover by changing them. I feel sure that even if I do manage to do no PMO successfully for a year, I will be stuck in that state of flatline and nothing will ever change.
Here's an example of a thread: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=8852.0
Quote: "Who came up with the 2-3 months of abstinence cures PIED mumbo jumbo. Guys on here are going 200 days to even a full year and aren't seeing much progress. Were those rebooting accounts fake? Are our brains damaged forever just because we watched women having sex on a screen? This is messed up :("
When I've been naked with women irl, I've felt NOTHING. I was not horny at all. It just felt completely alien to me, I was not turned on in any way. Meanwhile I can sometimes just sit down with my laptop before me and immediately feel horny even if I haven't loaded up any porn. And when I do actually look at porn and climax to it, it feels so goddamn amazing (when I haven't done it for a few days). I just feel completely comfortable with porn. It feels completely natural to me and has completely overridden what I should naturally feel with women! The worst part is I see girls and I think some of them look so gorgeous, and I'm even a romantic kinda guy at heart, but I just can't do anything about it. The attraction is there, but not the sexual providence needed.
Can you show me some successful rebooting accounts where the guy was actually a virgin before, and in his mid-20s, and he STILL actually recovered from PIED and THEN had sex for the first time? Because as far as I can tell these accounts simply don't exist. Perhaps for some of us recovery is simply impossible. I'm still trying... I'm on day 2, have hopes for this time. We'll see.
Thanks for reading.