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I got another wet dream. 15days exact from my last wet dream, and here comes another. Why do I got wet dreams now all of a sudden? Is this my cock just fucking around with me or what? "Haha I got you bastard!"

I went 58days without wet dream what so ever.

Gary or marnia, why do we get wet dreams? Seem like such a waste of good quality semen

Why do one get numb

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Wazzup yall

So as the title goes, why do we get numb when we are hooked on porn? After a couple of weeks off porn at my first reboot I FELT so much emotions. I cried, laughed got angry as hell. Feelings I didnt felt when I was hooked on that shit.

Wet Dream wtf

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Hey guys

Im doing good, but one thing happend this morning which kinda annoys me. I was like halfwake, half asleep when I came, totally unexpected, I wasn't even hard. And it wasn't nice. Was this a wet dream or what? Why would my body do that?

Im such a failure

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Ive lasted 21 days, three weeks exactly when I jerked off in the toilet. Sometimes I wonder if im ever going to get healthy. I mean what is wrong with me? I have battling this since august last year. It just feels hopeless.

Sorry if im come off as depressed but it just feels bad right now.

Wet dream wtf?

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Hi friends,

So i got a wet dream this night...really strange because I think I have never had that in my life. Is wet dreams good or bad? Is it a relapse?

Things are going good for now, I have a good balance. I work out three times a week, heavy weight lifting, I meditate like 10min a day, and I listen more to myself. If I want to cry, I cry, if I want to laugh I laugh. It seems to me that this journey isnt so much about the goal, but it is the journey itself that is the goal.

Lettuce be reality

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Yeah I gotta keep it real. No more hands under the pants just because it feels good. I can do this!

The training is going good, have actually seen some improvements. And i talk to some people while im at the gym. Some hot girls also. I got a boner while doing benchpress last week, saw a girls yummie booty and damn it was fine.

I dont think its so much about will power and all that, its more about changing your habits. Why do i relapse? Alone time, just bored etc. Idle hands make the devils work.

Relapse

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I had a relapse today, its soooooo nice to be able to touch (giggles) myself without any other visuals and its soooo nice. A whole new dimension. But i know its not really a real libido, when i get an erection, I HAVE to touch my giant buddy...

interesting to see the effects of it also, yesterday i had an superproductive day, did loads of things, then i relapsed on the evening, today i have massive brain fog, tired, sleepy, depressed, feeling lonely.

Can I have asbergers??

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My doctor called me last week and wanted to see me, he asked if im taking the anti-depressants and I said no. Todays visit was kinda hard, we talked for some time and I opened up more about my life, my past etc. He asked if I might have asbergers, because I have lived so isolated, and hard to make connections with people. This was hard for me to think about, I consider myself to be a social person...at least before the porn.

I am not going anywhere

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My timeline goes like this in january: 2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,12,25,26,27,28. February: 1,3,4,5,6,8.

It seems I dont go anywhere, and I dont know why. I dont have any internet but my brain can keep thinking about some porn scene for days on end, its like my brain is tormenting me. Dont know how to break this cykle.

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