I am not going anywhere

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My timeline goes like this in january: 2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,12,25,26,27,28. February: 1,3,4,5,6,8.

It seems I dont go anywhere, and I dont know why. I dont have any internet but my brain can keep thinking about some porn scene for days on end, its like my brain is tormenting me. Dont know how to break this cykle.

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Time

Just patience and time with abstaining from PMO. YBOP even says that some guys will flatline for up to 90 or 100 days. Maybe try reading a good book or two you haven't had a chance to get around to for a while. That'll help you focus and take your mind off of PMO.

I don't understand what you

I don't understand what you mean by your "timeline". Is that the days you've gone with no PMO? Or are those the days you felt good? Also, are you socializing a lot? Getting out of the house? Have you had any interactions with real women on a personal, or romantic level? You said you seem like you "don't go anywhere". Does that mean literally? It sounded to me like you were saying that you are not seeing any results, and are frustrated with the reboot/rewire process. If that's the case, and have gone with absolutely no PMO since August, you should test your libido by flirting with a girl or two. Just to to a coffee shop or a bar and see what you can come up with. However, some people have social anxiety problems that may need to be addressed outside of the reboot/rewire process. I don't know what your situation is, so I'm sorry for not being able to offer more encouraging words. I hope you find what you are looking for though.

From 25october until

From 25october until 18december i had my longest reboot, then after that what I wrote:

My timeline goes like this in january: 2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,12,25,26,27,28. February: 1,3,4,5,6,8.

Those days where relapses.

Yeah I feel frustrated...I just wanna get over with it and live a normal live. Have a healthy cock. I am getting out but for know I feel a terrible anger against women. I dont know why. I feel like Schopenhauer.

Just keep at it

Hey Borshajen,

It's great that you don't have easy access to the Internet, as that offers such a big temptation. The porn scenes should fade from your mind over time. I just got off a pretty heavy 7 - 10 day binge myself. All we can do is just get back up, and try again.

Here’s a good quote from Michael Jordan: “I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.”

You have acknowledged that you want to change which is the first real step to healing and redemption. In January you managed to go from the 12th till the 25th. That’s a pretty impressive accomplishment. What was different during that period that helped you abstain?

Don't be blind

to your successes, Borshajen. You have gone longer PMO free than many many men. Give yourself some credit! And you know that you will succeed if you stay on the course. It's only a matter of time. True, it may be taking longer than you like, but it will happen. I can't wait to hear you start telling us about your benefits and successes.

Stay strong!

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