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Day 24 no pmo hard mode

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Today is day 24 no pmo which is two days away from tying my record. I feel stable and normal at this point. The "superpowers" have seemed to have faded a little but this may be because im on a new work schedule and im waking up at 6am and im extremely tired. Been having some sexual dreams but no wet dreams. Havent felt the need to fap at all. Ive been super busy with my new job tho. Itll be interesting to see how this weekend goes when im not waking up at 6am and im caught up on my sleep.

3 weeks

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Just completed 3 weeks no pmo. Today was a little rough for me, but I think it was more due to the fact that im getting used to the new job schedule. Waking up early and working a full day of training has been rough. Other than that tho these past three weeks have been great. Ice been so clear-minded. I think times goes by slower during no pmo streaks or you're just able to do more since you arent just pmo'ing all day. Anyways not too much to report below the belt if you know what im saying. I feel healthier down below tho.

Day 20 peaking at the right time

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today marks day 20 of no pmo. I had my first day at my new Job too. it went really well. I was very social talking to my fellow new hires. some were girls and they were laughing at like all my jokes. it feels soo good to be stable mentally. I think the clearmindedness you get from this is the best benefit. you no longer have to think of what to say you just react, and react well I might add. Tomorrow marks 3 weeks and my best recorded record is 26 days. my initial goal is 30 then 60 then 90 and beyond. continuing strong and wish all of you well on your own journeys.

Day 19 feeling stable

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Last night my ex gf whom I broke it off with after s tumultuous year long relationship texted me. Before this 19 day streak I felt addicted to her but now my willpower is strong and the text didnt phase me that much. I responded back in a nice fashion and that was it. To reinerate before this no pmo streak this text would have stressed me out and put me in a whirlwind. Now im strong and know I dont need her or her approval to be happy. I broke up with her in a very gentlemanly way and have always kept my cool.

Day 18- making friends is easy now

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Today marks day 18 of no pmo. Ive noticed lately thats its so much easier to connect with people and make friends. For example, ill take a team logo on someones shirt and make a comversation about it. Its like my social skills are on point right now. What is it about not watching porn and abstaining from orgasm that makes it easier to connect with people. Im just worried that eventually ill have to have a release and all these positive benefits will go away. Im going to keep going for as long as possible but im just worried that one slip up and ill go back and start the cycle all over.

Day 17

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Yesterday morning I gad a very sexual dresm and dreamt that I pmo'd... Very weird feeling and woke up horny as hell. Kinda surprised i didnt have a wer dream jonestly. Started out the day feeling a little pent up and frudtrated but i then had a cold shower and that helped a lot. I still feel like the "magnetism' part of recovery is crazy to me. I was at the gym and a guy i somewhat knew from highschool came ocer and engaged me in comversation. Before this would never happen but now it happens a lot. Ill walk my patents dog and neighbors wikl stop and chat me up. I dont get it.

Haven't blogged in forever-Day16

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I've gone through a crazy year. had a roller coaster relationship with my now exgirlfriend. I finally ended it moved home after graduating college and start my first real job in a week. I've been trying to improve myself in every facet of my life. I've been working out or running every day. I'm in the "superpower" stage of my recovery right now. I feel extremely confidant, more manly, more outgoing etc,

Hit Low Point in My Life, But Optimistic about Future

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So I just broke up with my girlfriend Saturday because it was an unhealthy relationship. The previous night she had drank wayyy too much physically punched me multiple times in the chest just because I didn't want her to drive home from the bar and kill herself, or someone else. We had many other problems but this was the last straw for me so I ended it. She's tried to contact me by calling me and texting me but I haven't answered.

day 21 Finally!!!

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my girlfriend officially started her period today. I think the negative pregnancy test helped her relax to start. today also marks 3 weeks without porn and my only O was on day 7 with my gf. I feel great conversations are so much easier and I feel super confident. loving life right now.

day 20..relaxed sort of

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so it was day 10 and my gf was still late so we went to cvs and I bought clear blue pregnancy test that literally says either pregnant or not pregnant. she took it and it said not pregnant so I'm relieved but still don't feel entirely out of the woods yet. in other news I've been feeling great socially. my confidence is back and I feel positive. 20 days without porn with my only orgasm coming on day 7 with my gf.

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