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Conversation with myself

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Right now I guess its time to do more work on myself. I guess. I spent 5 years with no sex and no relationships working on myself.

Relationships aren't working out, so I will just keep working on myself.

Someday, some girl will come along and either think I'm totally awesome for all the work I've done becoming me or think I'm a total pain in the ass because I have all this armor around myself trying to protect from all the past hurts and stuff..

Or, maybe, she'll think both.

An unconventional and surprising friend came into my life

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So, I had to break it off w a girl..

Initially she txted me alot then stopped txting altogether almost. So I confronted her about it and we had a falling out...

Then a few months later I just decided to txt her, see how she was doing. It was literally a one thing led to another night..

She came over and I told her she could stay in the guest room. After a little while she came to my room to snuggle. Then, after a while, we kissed and eventually sex. She was apologizing about the way she treated me before and also saying she hadn't been w anyone else...

Love Cripple

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 I remember when I went to 12 step meetings, there was a part in the book where it says something like: Those of us who thought of ourselves as great lovers were actually great love cripples..

 

Drinking in the new poison

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So I met this new girl shortly after my out of town girlfriend left. She acted and expressed high interest in me at first.

We haven't had sex, but spent a couple nights cuddling and making out, and I had talked to her about my philosophy that exclusive, but not necessarily serious or committed right away is the way to go. How else can you find out really about a person and if they are right for you if you don't focus on one? And she even seemed open when I was talking about the slow sex stuff.

Karezza and promiscuity

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So, alot of women I meet lately seem to just want a friends with benefits, take it slow, nothing serious sort of thing.

I believe in exclusivity in dating, but still taking things slow. How can you really know a person, what they're like and if they're right for you if you have other distractions in your life?

And yeah, a lot of these women turn out to be at least somewhat promiscuous....

My question is: Can practicing Karezza/tantric/non-orgasmic/slow sex change a promiscuous person?

Finally over.... I think

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So I had a conversation over the phone with her yesterday. If you don't know who *she* is pls read my recent blog entries.

Anyhow we had this conversation and she was basically saying she is no longer willing to even try having sex anymore, so we will be friends and there was talk of dating other people. I was trying to impart on her that all I need is probably a few practice runs where we fool around and there is no pressure, but that she can do what she wants, its up to her. So we're at an impasse

Friends it is i guess

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So I developed performance anxiety bc she was being too wishy washy about the relationship and I couldn't feel safe to have sex. One day I love yous and then once a week or two I got lets break it off.

she got angry about the performance anxiety, we fought about it and I guess we are just friends now. She says she really needs to b alone for a while to work on herself and she is probably right. I need somewhat more emotional stability for intimacy to work for me.

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