Decided to take a break for a few days and just love in the moment.A while ago I read that "sensitization is when an addict pursues his/her addiction or fix". I can say that this break has been a good decision but at the same time the urges to MB and watch P have been higher then normal I'm on the fence about masturbating. Because even though I have urges to do it I don't feel like its natural libido I feel like its connected to my porn use after escalating to gay porn this year back in my first reboot when I started to binge I saw this one particular _______scene _______________ and for some reason this scene has crept in my brain every time I think about masturbating. Because of all the pleasure he was recieveing kind of drives mg brain crazy for that high so I feel like if I MB that I'll just end of thinking of that scene and I don't want to do that obviously.There's also another scene that's always in my brain that just won't seem to leave my brain. _______________________So I'm glad to say that even though the temptation to relapse was extremely high I didn't and I didn't even masturbate or edge.Im also on the fence about MBing because I feel like I'm numb down there from all this pmo. I don't have ED or anything but I just want to hold off until later or after my reboot to try to MB and I want it to feel natural with noporn scenes running through my mind!I'm on Day 33 and I'm doing pretty good emotionally not fully there yet but I will be just ready for my brain to start to rewire.