Last night, I took a girl out on date. Fancy little restaurant. Everything went perfect at first. We had some good food, and ended up just sitting around and talking for about four hours. I took her back to my place afterwards, and we popped in a movie. About ten minutes into it, we started making out, and things got pretty hot. At first, I was really happy, because I felt an erection from just a little touching and kissing. It kept up as we got naked, and then as soon as I reached for a condom, BAM, i'm soft, almost DEAD. She told me not to worry and relax, and took over for a bit. I only managed to get semi hard, after which I tried to slip another condom on. Right as I was about to insert, I went soft AGAIN. I was furious. My girl told me that it's ok,it happens sometimes, and that she enjoys "just kissing me", which kinda of only made me more depressed. I ended up Oing once after a handjob (producing only a semi-hard erection in the process), and we went to sleep.
Early in the morning, I woke up feeling kind of horny, so we began fooling around again. Once more, I was semi-hard, but when I went to slip a condom on, I went soft. I O'd after another handjob.
36 Days, and I still can't hold an erection with a girl. I feel like I'm going to die a virgin!
Today I feel drained from the two orgasms, depressed about my lack of performance, and overall frustrated and disheartened with this whole process. I realize that this is probably only a flatline, but hearing about couples engaging in healthy sexual relationships, and then not even being able to hold an erection while i'm trying to have sex for the first time, really puts a damper on things.
I hope you are all doing better than me.