I don't want to waste your time here because I have done everything that most of the others have done. So I will just put my highlights.
1) Used to do PMO in the office toilet 2 years back.. Not anymore.
2) Signed up my wife in all types of courses just to be alone at home.
3) Have downloaded and deleted P after every session for years.
4) Never been truthful about this habit to anyone.
5) Never been there for anyone, friends , family , wife.
6) Skipped many vacations just to do PMO alone.
7) Hiding myself and PMO after a nice party or on nice holiday cruise
8) Never stopped PMO even during special days like Christmas or new year
9) Have made countless resolutions and relapses that i don't trust me anymore.
10) Lost my self respect , reliance , ability , dignity , etc for PMO but no shame or regret so far.
I am not signing up here to be a winner again . I really don't want to loose my mind and go insane.
That is why I am here , just to keep accounting and check If I am still sane.
Today might be my first day clean on the numerous streaks I have been through