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Feeling kinda discouraged

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Last weekend I needed to use Zoe's car, drop her off somewhere, and run another errand, so I got into the driver's seat. I had somewhat forgotten about the criticism I get from her whenever I drive. When I first put the car into motion, I was a bit heavy on the gas, and the car jerked. Zoe immediately complained. "Zoe!" I said with some exasperation (how nice to start the trip with her criticizing my driving!) "I'm not used to driving your car. It has a lot more power than mine does." "Don't rebel against my suggestions," she said.

Antagonistic amygdalas

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This morning I paid Zoe part of the money she had paid for household expenses while I was out of work last year and this year. She was pleasant and talked about various things (stream of consciousness style, as she often does) for about ten minutes - nothing emotionally charged - and left for a class she is taking. As she was going out the door I tried to give her a hug. It was kind of awkward. She had some stuff in her hands, and she just kept on walking.

A bit less grumpy this time

Submitted by CuriousFellow on

As I was about to leave for work in the morning, I visited Zoe's bedroom. She was sitting on the floor, leaning against the bed. I sat down next to her. I saw that she was smiling, but had her face twisted up, trying not to smile. I put an arm around her, and she more or less repeated what she said a few weeks ago, about me owing her some money, and I should get to work. But this time she sounded a bit less grumpy. I held her for a pleasant 30 seconds, then wished her a nice day and left.

Another hug

Submitted by CuriousFellow on

Yesterday morning, Zoe was quite pleasant - I could even say "as usual" because she has been pleasant most of the time, for several weeks. As I was about to leave for work, Zoe was in the kitchen looking through a drawer for something. I gave her a hug (from the side) and said "Have a nice day!" She kept looking down so her hair hid her face. I like to imagine she was hiding a smile.

And this morning, Zoe was cooking as I was about to leave. I put my hand on her back (carefully, so as not to cause accidents), and she offered me some of what she was cooking.

Thinking and Feeling

Submitted by CuriousFellow on

This is in response to Hotspring's interesting question:
[quote=hotspring]I'm interested to learn how it is that you are able to still be attracted to Zoe and want to get back together again despite her overall grumpiness?[/quote]

Someone once said that man is not a rational animal, but rather a rationalizing animal.

Update - a new plateau

Submitted by CuriousFellow on

On 10-10 Zoe bought some mattress pads (that make the bed softer and a lot warmer) and installed one on my bed - a significant event since she rarely does that sort of thing for me. It made me wonder if she was signaling that she wanted to get back together with me.