Day 26 Porn free

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This morning i pleasured myself physically leading to an orgasm. I used my forearm instead of my hand although it was very tempting.

I could have stopped it but I got lost in fantasy. I fantasised about some general things that turn me on. Most related to a woman being objectified in some way. Usually it was a woman i know personally.

Not sure what to think yet. I had a slight breakdown about an hour after it occured, felt quite tired and demotivated, and with my current environment, giving up was on the cards. But I carried on with my day and it was somewhat productive.

Fortunately had the weekend off work which has been great not having to go back to that place.

Did have a confrontation with my mother as usual, but I'm not feeling so bad about it now as she bought me some takeout food for dinner and we ate together (in the same room) for the first time in ages. Of course the only connection we shared was the TV we didn't actually speak.

Not going to start from Day 1 in regards to the O as my real focus is just to give up the porn. That has been a daily challenge today as ever. Not overwhelming, but I guess because of physically pleasuring myself to orgasm earlier with some fantasy, i wanted to let it all go and just binge on porn. What keeps me from doing it is the articles and information i've read and the benefits i've seen for myself both this time and the last time i gave it up.

Final point - the last two times i had sex with my gf a few days ago, both times were great. There's been a difference also in having sex, I know longer need to think about porn scenarios to orgasm, as I did when I was binging on porn 4 times a week or whatever. I can now orgasm from being connected to her alone, and that has really made me quite happy. I really have been appreciating her a lot more which has been good, when we've seen each other, not really sure how it would be 7 days a week though. It's definitely a key reason for me to keep off the porn though.

Derobe

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