Recently, i reverted back to mb while using the memories of an old gf. It's a double-edged sword because it makes me miss my intimacy with her but it also makes me feel lonely and insecure afterwards. Basically, for about a week after, i feel that i have cravings to be in a relationship so that i don't revert back to self pleasing myself. I have to admit that i'm also using my own self pleasuring as a drug because i am unhappy about my financial picture and what it means as far as dating etc. I'm older so it's not as easy to meet women who are willing to accept a man in my situation or maybe i just don't think i can because i'm going through this insecure stage. I'm sure i'll feel stronger in a week from now but even though i'm not using porn I still feel that i'm stuck in an addictive cycle.
I'm not sure if there are any women on this site anymore but wondering if you would chime in about dating a guy who's got a tough financial picture etc. I am probably just feeling sorry for myself tonight but I miss being in a relationship. Maybe i'm addicted to relationships and not porn. What can i do about that?