Day 8

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Had a couple of beers last night, not that many, but at least enough to get me somewhat hung over today. It's 1822 hours and my "hungover horneyness" are approaching. I'm starting to regret that I canceled the plans I had for this night. Although I'm strong enough not to sucomb, it would have been nice to have something to occupy my mind with.

I've read several of other noFappers that experienced lows and highs. Today I'm in a low, not a big one but I'm sill feeling blue. That why I canceled my plans for this evening. Been thinking a lot of former girlfriends and my life situation today. Need to get some positive thoughts in my mind...

I think I will utilize my blue mood by picking up my guitar and play and play some slow blues.... It's a beautiful sunny summer evening in sweden, my windows are full open and my Les Paul are crying....

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"Blue" is generally

not a good reason to turn down socializing...just as you figured out.

Lows can really evaporate sometimes if we socialize. Time alone is great...but only when it's not a trigger. Wink

Blue

Phheew! Won't make that mistake again and cancel my social plans in this mood. I wished that everybody that tried to kick a habit or abuse played an instrument, the music really gives you a way to channel your emotions and keep your body or fingers busy. Probably played my best slow blues ever up do date, felt great hearing my neighbors ( that usually tells me to shut up and go to bed when play plugged in) to apllaud and give positive comment on blues/jazz....

Miss the enormous amount of energy that I felt the first couple of day though, so darn lazy at the moment. My bed are 25 feet away and in my mind its waaay to far...