Okay, after spending an hours worth watching some of the most horrifying and strangely erotic (see what porn does? It escalates into the wierd)internet porn, I'm attempting to abstain again. No more, leaves you feeling empty inside. In fact, that's what made me realize it is an addicition, using it to cover up emptiness. Now mind you, I know people who do the same thing with sex. They go out and fuck random people to get validation, fills a gap inside of them, well it covers it temporarily anyways. Kinda hard to find anything genuine through an orgasm I guess. Day 1, probably 119 more to go lol.
What is holding me back or causing me pain?
Is there something I need to be alert to in my situation?
FOCUS ON THE SHORT TERM
What insight will help me at this time?
GOAL IS WORTH THE SACRIFICE