So we haven't had intercourse for three days now and Sparkles has been in a very bad mood. Not sure if it's work related or just what it is. She has always had these moods and I guess now is one of them.
I cuddled with her last night and then she said that she hadn't really wanted to cuddle. But did it so I wouldn't get mad. I got mad at that point because I'm constantly the initiator of physical affection of any kind in our relationship and that has become wearying.
This was almost midnight and I should have gone downstairs and hit the mattress and discharged some of these difficult angry feelings but I didn't.
It's weird though. The time I'm not initiating intercourse is the time she gets all moody and upset. Is this just coincidence? This is the first time we haven't had intercourse in three days since we started this Karezza adventure actually.
This morning she is quite angry with me and we hardly exchange a word. Very unusual for us.
I guess this is part of the process. She has to find her own way and separate from my pressure -- pressure for physical closeness as well as pressure for intercourse. There has to be an adjustment. It is strange and different.
I suppose it's all part of the adventure. Sigh.