I am really having a great time with Karezza. This journey has been amazing.
I was realizing today that perhaps I worry or think too much about whether my partner is actually aroused and enjoying things.
I mean, I want her to be. But the real magic of Karezza happens when I go inside and am very present in my own body, lately with a focus on the root of my penis and my solar plexus. That's when things get amazing for me. And I think that I focus too much lately on how she's doing and what she's feeling.
I can't know what she's feeling. And I can't really be responsible for her being aroused. And maybe it's better that she isn't aroused all that much. Who can know.
As we've proceeded along this journey, I think lately I've morphed into thinking too much about her and what she's feeling, which is a lot like regular sex without the orgasm. With hot mating type sex, it was all about getting her aroused and hot, and her doing that with me. In a way I've fallen back into that path a bit.
Now I realize it.
So I'm going to focus on my own sensations again and the flow of energy between us.