I guess I will have to say that I am in a reboot mode and going through a bit of a flatline.
Recap: In my low 50s, married almost 25 years, and never did the video porn thing but since maybe 15 did the M to pornographic stories. Videos and pictures couldn't match the stories and the pictures they created in my head.
So I suppose I was living in a very strong fantasy world.
I stopped all masturbation and porn maybe 5 weeks ago. And I have been practicing Karezza, definitely a work in progress.