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I started to masturbate when I was maybe 11 and quickly found fantasies to masturbate with, in Penthouse and a book called The Pearl.

I guess very early maybe 4 or 5 I didn't realize it but I found sexual pleasure in domination themes. I think this is built in somehow. So when I discovered the written word and pornographic stories I gravitated to those that had an S&M component.

Ditto with pornographic movies and videos although I never really got into these so much. I would use pornographic stories and read them and masturbate to these, often over an hour or two.

♥Help! I'm too pushy for cuddling and sex

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As I wrote a few days ago, this is very early in our new sexual relationship. My wife ("Sparkles") and I are in our fifties and since I quit masturbating and quit having orgasms, about 3 weeks ago, I am changing the relationship and my wife finds this new intensity discomfiting and "pressure" which it is.

gave her an orgasm, oh my

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So I haven't orgasmed in a few weeks or so and don't plan on it. Each day Sparkles and I are in bed snuggling and at some point I'll enter her for a bit. It's been magnificent but she says that she feels a bit pressured by me.

So today we were snuggling for the second time today, and she started to really respond. I asked her if she wanted an orgasm and she said yes so I went down on her and helped her get there and wow was that fun. She said, "occasionally I'll have an orgasm" and that's fine with me.

♥marriage, sex and karezza, intro to Emerson

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Marriage and sex, how wonderful! -- Introduction from Emerson

I started to masturbate when I was maybe 10 or 11. At the age of 13 a girl tried to seduce me but I felt I was too young. I hadn't had a proper puberty yet. Maybe I was closer to 12 actually.

Scary.

Then an aggressive girl across the street was babysitting and invited me over to the empty house. The kid was asleep. She wanted me. But I couldn't really get into it. I was scared.

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