Day 17 - So bored

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After a day of feeling annoyed and sad and alone, I now feel bored. I feel like I just need to get out of the house. I have jobs and what not, but it feels like it has been a while since I've hung out with people. I'm going a little crazy! Maybe I need to join some outdoor clubs or something. I definitely need some more loving friends. My friends have been so disappointing to me this year. I just want friends that aren't drama every other day and relaxed in their own shoes, rather than angry friends or friends of low self-esteem.

I feel the need for change in my life, but I don't know what that entails. A new girlfriend, a new location, new friends, something! I just feel like I need to do something with my life!

I think about my ex girlfriend all the time. I'm dreading the moment she dates someone else. Unfortunately, there are a lot of issues that make dating her difficult.

Maybe I should just join the Peace Corp or something - escape.

Don't know what to think of my life right now.


Withdrawal often

feels like a desert...dull, gray, hopeless and endless.

Are you exercising? Time in nature, meditation, any socializing, doing something creative...all help regulate mood.

I am

exercising and meditating. I do try to spend time in nature, but as it has been bitterly cold lately, I find that more difficult.

My social life feels like it has gone down the tubes. I have my roommates, but they spend most of their time watching TV. I'm not really into that. I have a friend that I hang out with, but our relationship is complex and I don't really know how much longer I want to be friends with her. I feel very angry and bitter because of the way she dealt with my last relationship. I question the healthiness of that relationship.

I feel like I need a brand new social life. I'm moving to a city about a 1/2 hour from where I live to go to graduate school. There I hope to go to a church that may reflect my values, meet fellow students, and maybe be in some theatre productions. I really hope to date a lot.

I do need to focus on some of my creative hobbies. I've been so busy lately with school, I feel like all I ever do is study. :(

When do you move?

You've heard the saying, "When you're going through hell, keep going" right? Hopefully things will brighten up soon.

As for your friend...friends are precious and everyone makes mistakes. Maybe you can tell her what's wrong.

I move in a month or so...

I care about my friend a great deal. I'm just not sure she and I can be friends while I date. The short story is that we were basically in love, but she wouldn't date me because I'm not a Christian. We've been friends for 8 years. This year is the first time I've dated, and she basically went nuts. I'm just not sure our friendship is compatible with dating. It's very painful as I still love and care for her.

We've had many, many discussions about this whole situation. We seem to resolve little.